I was at the gym this morning on the treadmill. All of a sudden CNN put up a black slate with big white letters. It was up for a good minute and even though all of us had our Ipods on, our heads all shifted to that monitor. The words read "You are about to see very graphic video. Please take your children out of the room."  In my many years in news, I'd never seen it put quite that way. Of course, my eyes never shifted from that television. In moments, I was watching a young girl, who I later learned was named Neda" being shot during an Iranian protest. The amateur video then showed her laying on the ground grabbing her chest. Her father desperately crying over her and holding her hands.  In moments, her face was covered in blood. I have seen a lot of things in my time, but probably nothing as disturbing as this. I later learned she was a travel agent and that her family was being barred from holding a public funeral for her. When I got to work, the first thing I did was google her image. She was a beatiful girl. She is now on YouTube, Facebook, all over the internet.  I have to agree with network anchors. This has been happening to male protestors for years and we rarely bat an eye. But seeing this today, somehow hit me where it really hurt. For a moment I couldn't breathe. And it wasn't because I was going too fast on the treadmill. These images physically affected me and yet I couldn't turn away. When it was over, I took a deep breath in and wiped the tears, not sweat, from my cheeks. WHAT IS GOING ON IN THIS WORLD? On the next monitor over, Fox News talking about the North Korean ship that was about to be intercepted by the Navy. Two monitors over, more bombs exploding in Iraq and on the last monitor, soldiers dying in Afghanistan.  When my younger reporters ask me if I think the world will really end in 2012. I chuckle. I've heard that before. In seventh grade, we all sat out in the quad at lunch waiting for the sky to fall as predicted.  But, for the first time, today, I started to worry. I'm not an alarmist. But things have been running through my head all day. Should I make a bucket list? How do I explain all this to my 16 year old? Will my baby be alive to find the love of her life and have a family of her own?  This is a very unstable time. No matter if you voted for President Obama or not, you have to admit you would not want to be in his position right now. I imagine, he's not getting any sleep. So, maybe now is a good time to tell your family members you love them. To stop yourself when you feel like arguing about petty things. To stop and smell the roses. Whatever it is you can do to make yourself feel at peace..because right now it's a very difficult thing to find in our world.